It's because I don't have a job yet and I have my reasons for that but people wouldn't understand. At least I'm gonna start college so I'll be doing something besides going to therapy every week. There ways of getting me help with money when it comes to college so I don't really have to worry about that plus my grandparents saved up money a long time ago in case I wanted to do this. I didn't know they did that but that's really cool. So that'll also help. I just feel like a loser for not having a job yet. I plan to get one eventually but just one thing at a time. I get easily overwhelmed by stuff and I want to try going to college cause that's what I want to do. My sleep scedule is wierd and I have trouble sleeping at night. So I want to do things later in the day and trying to do both college and have a job I'm afraid would be too much for me. I'll probably have homework too. I just want to do what I want to do and I want to go to school. What's so wrong with me not having a job yet? I'll live my life the way I want to. It's not like I'm not trying to do anything with my life. Some people might not understand but this is just something I have to do. Is there really anything wrong with going my own path in life? Some things are just too hard for me to deal with.