I am sorry your T was able to be persuaded or whatever words you want to use. I would hope any T should be strong enough not to go for it with a patient. Obviously that relationship was not a good thing for either of you. I am pro choice. I know many people mouths fall open when I say that. Everyone has their opinion on the subject. But that is one reason I believe in it. It is our body and why should anyone make that choice. I dont beleive in using abortion for birth control and I would hope a woman making that choice would do it within the first month or two. But as far as I am concerned you made the right choice. Please dont let anyone make you feel worse for your choice. I really hope you are able to find a good T to help you with your addiction. You are not a bad person! Obviously you have not chosen to have a sex addiction, or any other addiction. And as I know from experience, any addiction will take work if you want to stay in recovery. Maybe working on the alcohol addiction will also help with your other problems. I am glad you are willing to work on it. But please dont put yourself down. Those feelings are probably the same ones that keep you running back to old ways. Good Luck to you 90!!!