Hi Astral
I hope you made it through without drinking. I know how hard it is, and I offer my support to you if you ever need to talk, you can message me.
Thinking of losing loved ones is very sad, but losing oneself is heartbreaking.
I’ve been drinking lots of water and tea to help cravings. Staying hydrated helps. Do you have any positive hobbies to immerse yourself to keep your mind on something fun?
Is something stressful happening to cause these feelings?