Hi kristina21502. Welcome to Psych Central. Sorry for the loss of your mom. Losing a mom is the most difficult loss I can imagine. Since it has been 14 years, what professional options do you consider to help you cope with this long term grief?

Hope you get the support you are hoping for at Psych Central.
Maybe this will be of interest
https://psychcentral.com/lib/on-grief-loss-and-coping/