Hello Kristina: My condolences on the loss of your mom. Both of my parents have been gone quite a few years now as well. I believe this is your first posted thread, here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!

P.S. I see CANDC provided you with a link to an article from the PsychCentral archives on the subject of grief & loss. So I won't add further to that. One other resource I might suggest, though, is an author & depression counselor on YouTube by the name of Douglas Bloch. He also has his own website:

Healing From Depression, Overcoming Anxiety, Self-help Books, Mental Illness, Portland, Oregon Depression Support Groups

You might find Douglas' videos to be of interest. Here's a link to his YouTube channel:

https://www.youtube.com/user/healingdepression

I wish you well...