You're not pathetic and definitely not the only one. Heck I'm taking a break from t right now and I paused said break briefly for a session last week and now? Well I lay in bed at night and talk to her in my head as I fall asleep. Every night!!! I feel pathetic about that but try to tell myself it's just the way my process is working right now. It's not like SHE knows of these nightly um, 'chats' I have w her in my head...