Hello, its been a while since I've been on here and lately I've been feeling so anxious just about the fact that I'm still having the struggles I've had years ago. I have found myself unable to sleep due to my nasal deviation making it hard to breathe and now I've been referred to an autism specialist, because my doctor has found my ADHD meds are no longer working and all of this makes me feel so nervous and sad. I want to have hope and feel great about the future but I don't even if I get the diagnosis, I still feel there's not much change in anything. I doubt the ability of anything working for me anymore and as much as I don't want to feel sad and useless I do. I feel like I'm capable of nothing and my weakness is when I get this sad I'm unable to see a way out. I have no idea what to say I'm confused I have no idea what to do with myself. I have made new friends since new years eve but my failure to thrive now is just to apparent. I have no idea how I'm meant to cope because this makes me feel like never ending sorrow that I'm like this. It absolutely bothers me that my meds don't work and I still can't concentrate how am I ever ment to have a normal job? Most days I'm so filled with worry that I've become confused...