Sometime so would just like to kick myself. I come up with the most stupid ideas from left field. So it’s been about two Months since I left my T because she double booked me. Well for some reason I felt like I had to reach out and give her my two cents of how the whole situation was disappointing.
She responded that she was human and it was just a human error. Well we texted back and forth. She told me that I need to give chances and so here I go and I fell for it. I’m like what’s youre availability. This is where I should’ve kicked myself again but apparently I didn’t.

She said she has sessions available. It took three days to figure out that she will see me at the end of the month into February at 9pm. No specific date and no specific anything. She blamed it on my work schedule. Again texts going back very slow about scheduling. Perhaps two texts a day. Meanwhile I’m having issues in life and I’m trying to keep myself from plummeting.

Then I realized that this is all wrong. Slow texts and again her showing no care or interest. She has excuses for everything. I finally sent her a last text saying that perhaps it’s not a good idea and that obviously she has a busy schedule and that I need help now and in a month. She used to at times make time for me when she screwed up badly but this time it was a no go.

My point is that if I never went to therapy to begin with I wouldn’t be on this forum on Friday night complaining about how I tried down to chase down my ex T and how poorly she responded. Two months and I’m not over this. It’s insane!!