Yes yes and more yes. It has negatively affected every aspect of my life. Last t session I told my t my life as a wasteland. Because it is. It is a wasteland of failed education, failed jobs, failed parenting and failed relationships.
I have not been able to complete several educational diplomas (that cost me several thousand dollars to end up with nothing.)
While I haven't lost custody of my children they have suffered greatly and have psychological problems I hope they will be able to address at some point. (I tell them all the time it is not their fault).
What "relationships" another part of me has managed to have have been been very brief and spectacular failures.
On my last birthday the only person who wished me a happy birthday was my primary abuser.
I have lost all my friendships because I was viewed as a liar. Because different parts of me have different truths.
I am managing to keep my current job. There is that.
On the surface I appear to be high functioning. But scratch below that thin surface and there is nothing there.
You are not alone.
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