...ok... i'm feeling numb, and it hurts really far away like layers and layers deep so that i can't access it... i barely know it is there (except for the anxiety, depression, and acting out). like in someone elses body - when you see a nail in their hand, and it causes you pain... but deeper, further.... like a knife twisting in to flesh so numbed out you know it's hurting, but you can't comprehend it.