My last 2 threads didn't work. I'll try again..
So the nature of OCD consists of obsession (thought) and compulsion (confirm or negate the thought), right?
I've had a bad habit through the years while I've used to confirm a series of bad thoughts, with bad actions (I've made no serious damage to anyone or myself though).. so now I'm trying to not do it..
here comes my concern: I've started doing the opposite, like I had the obsession of doing only positive things and staying full of energy all the time.. it can work for a while, but at one point, one becomes tired and stressed, and so did I..
Now I'm trying to keep the good habits I've 'achieved' without controlling too much my actions, so I've found what I think is useless and I'm trying to stop doing it.. obviously it isn't easy because when I stop controlling some things I start feeling anxious, but it should go away as I keep avoiding it, with time.. am I right? What do you think of all this?
the 'loop' I wrote in the title refers, now, to the concern of accidentally controlling useless things (like, I forget it?) and so I have to start over (and having all these things to remember isn't easy) so I'm scared to control the act of controlling. This is just insane.
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