Golden, give it more thought please. I say it with most respect and care for you. You were making such progress...

There is no harm in casual sex or friends with benefits if that’s what was decided from the get go. However that’s not what happened. I know you were the one who ended it but the reason was him not wanting to be exclusive with you and pretty much not wanting relationship with you. Yet you continue texting him about missing him and now asking to meet him so you can make out and kiss him (he might be making out with other women eww).

What message do you send?

Imho you are sending indirect message that you are desperate and maybe don’t really value yourself high enough that even knowing he doesn’t want relationship with you you still want to make out (easy?). If you have a concern why you keep attracting wrong men and how to act so you don’t attract the kind of men, the first step would be acting with high respect for yourself. If you must have that gift he can ship it to you, or you can meet few months from now. I could see if it was 10 year long relationship or marriage and you need more closure but you barely knew the guy, it was non exclusive and casual and brief, plus you said you miss first guy and now you miss this one too?

Trust me texting or calling or meeting this guy or any other wrong guys is just a bad idea. If you want to make changes, today is the day to start. Have you talked to your therapist about it?

Please just think some more about it.