Your t had two choices for your session that day: announce at the beginning that he would be gone, in which case you would lose your time because you would be focused on him. Or announce at the end, and let you have your normal session.

So why are you afraid to continue to focus on you and not on him?

Or - can you use this time now to "have that session" as if he had announced at the beginning, and given you no more further information about it. Just, its a personal day, period.

Which was the point i was trying to make before, that it was just a personal day for him, and he didnt care to expand on it, for whatever reason. Im sorry i sounded like i was making light of the situation.

I think he thought you would not be this affected by it, which was a mistake on his part, and your reaction may have taken him by surprise?

Its taken me by surprise because we usually understand each other. I apologize for adding to your pain on this.