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The one thing that stood out to me from your post was the fact that you are a good and true person. Why would you want to change that? The only thing I would to suggest to work on is your thinking patterns. From reading your other posts I always think to myself....now there is someone that I would love to hang out with. You have to enjoy hanging out with yourself. You are doing so good and you should be proud of yourself. It takes courage and strength to not let your childhood ruin your life. You should be proud.
Loving oneself is to not have doubts of who you are. You seem to know who you are so hang onto that.

Heather