Thank you for sharing too Skeezyks. I wish you well too.

I feel a tiny bit less alone with my dark thoughts after reading your post, so you have helped one person at least today.

That policy quote had an effect to tell me I didn't belong here because I was opening up about my potential as an abuser -- someone not welcome according to the policy...

as you say 'the good, the bad, and the ugly' we most of us have some mixtures and how can we fix ourselves unless we also address the ugly parts, without all being welcome.

I agree with your interpretation. That is a healthy way to look at it and that is how I'll chose to think about it as well.