so very much pondering the stuff we talked about on 1/4. bought another book i've been reading about that general subject. interestingly, something seems to be shifting inside me again. The wanting to experience, to understand, to know... my path... you're on yours and it's right for you but it's not necessarily mine and maybe they're similar and maybe they're not but this... this... this, it's happening deep within me, and I have to face it alone for a while.