I'm sorry you had this disturbing experience. I don't really have anything to offer here other than that I've read several of your posts recently & I know how lonely you're feeling. I'm 69 myself & live a pretty-much thoroughly reclusive lifestyle at this point. Thankfully though I am married. So I do at least have one person in my life. I hope your meal with the women's group goes well. It sounds as though that could, perhaps, be a good new source of companionship for you. Good luck with CBT too!