Since June I’ve beeb in ip 7 times by force I think. But I’m thinking about going in voluntarily this time. I feel unwell. I seem to be rapid cycling even though that’s not my normal. I haven’t been taking meds because of paranoia. Feeling suicidal and tending to harm a bit. Extreme dissociation. I can’t list everything that’s going on. I feel like giving up but might give this a try first. I just hate it so much.