Hey guys,
I'm new here and I'm in need of some support and encouragement. I have had depression since 2011 and I was reading different self help topics last year on depression and happened to read a lot about bipolar disorder too. I went to my psychiatrist and told her that I thought I had bipolar disorder and she reviewed my symptoms with me and put me on am antipsychotic. I faithfully take my medication and I have made so much progress within the past year. However, my husband and I had an argument in September of 2017 and he has given me the silent treatment ever since. He has slept in his man cave for 4 consecutive months without speaking to my daughter and I. His 16 year old daughter would come over every other week for a week at a time and he would speak to her but Ignore us. Well, he came to the conclusion that it would be best for him to move out of our home. So he moved 90% of his things out and last night he decided that he was going to stay here and not move out. He told me that his daughter wasn't going to come over anymore and he was done with being a father. He said he has had to bite his tongue for the last 4 years because his daughter was here and now that she's not returning he's going to treat me how he has always wanted to treat me when I was being impulsive, saying hurtful things, etc. So last night he went off on me and called me multiple curse words, said that I'm not depressed and that I am only rude with him. If you ask me, I would say he's the one acting psychotic here. He asked me to make him a roast and make dinner this weekend, all while calling me out of my name. Now he said he isn't leaving and I believe that he's trying to provoke me. I am here to say I don't have the energy or desire to fight and argue. I have said a lot and I do mean a lot of hurtful things in the past but my medication has really worked over the past year. If this were to occur prior to my new medication regimen I'd go toe to toe and argue with him, but I don't want to do that now. He is acting like a complete stranger and displaying behaviors that I have never thought I would see. When asking him why he was treating me like that he basically summed it up to this...........it's payback for my behavior the past 4 years. So because I have said mean and hurtful things in the past to him he's seeking revenge. I am not mentally strong enough to handle this. I want him gone. We rent from my parents and last night I told my mom over the phone that he decided he was going to stay here and not go anywhere and she said the heck with that, put him out. But I can't put him out, it isn't that easy. I was thinking about having my dad change the locks Wednesday but I'm not so sure what he would do if I done that.....again he has about 5 pairs of pants / jeans here and maybe 10 pairs of shoes. What I was planning on doing was packing up his clothes while he's at work and taking them to his mom's house. When he arrives here with the locks changed he would obviously not be able 2 get in and really wouldn't have a reason to want to get in the house. I struggle daily with mental illness but again I'm compliant with My medication and open and honest with my psychiatrist about my symptoms. My husband is in denial of mental illness unless you are straight psychotic hallucinating and basically responding to internal stimuli. Over the past year I have tried to explain that the severity of my bipolar isn't that extreme and the severity varies with individuals - like you can have stage 4 cancer or stage 1, it all just varies. Well, he thinks I'm making my whole disorder up and he's out for vengeance. Any advice is welcome.
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