I sometimes think I love my cats the most. I loved the country I was born in, everything from the dust to the stars at night. I am in a new phase, figuring out who I am, what I like, how to ask for it, and how to tell people when my feelings are hurt. It is pretty cool figuring out how I feel and letting other people feel their feelings. My world is much safer, nicer and understandable. I really went in the wrong direction growing up by focusing on when my mom was going to come after me, it was like trying to predict the weather on a mad planet. So now I try to reach out to people, even my mom, and decide how much of their company I want, when for instance they offer me less affection than they would to their cable man.