Hello everyone,

I just found this forum and intend to try to read what are people are going through and maybe even be an active poster. I just have a quick question beforehand. My apologies if this is not the right subforum.

I've recently (two weeks or so) started to finally take some actions in my life after many years of problems (besides talking to a psychiatrist) and I was now thinking about starting a Wordpress blog to just write down my thoughts of the day and how my journey is going.

I've been meaning to do this for a long time, but I just couldn't get myself to actually do it, even though I used to love writing. The plan was just to be brutally honest with myself and just get everything out of my system on a daily basis. I think I'll be somehow more motivated to write every day in a blog rather than writing aimlessly in a word file or scribbling on a piece of paper, I think because it will feel more like a journal and also the added thought that maybe someone might find it and find some strength in what I'm going through (going to write it in English, not in my native language).

I've just now signed up on WordPress but two questions came to mind after doing that:

1) I've been reading a bit about physically throwing away negative thoughts on paper. Although I certainly don't intend this blog to be a negative-thoughts-only journal, there's probably going to be a lot of that in there. Will it still be helpful or will I just perpetuate my negative thinking rather than getting it out of my system?

2) I want to be really honest and talk about things I don't talk about with anyone, even my psychiatrist. But even though I don't plan to use real names or anything like that, I do suppose that someone who knows me quite well will be able to figure out that it's me, or even someone who doesn't know me so well, as I probably will write about music and movies and books as well and I do keep track of those on other sites. I also signed up using an e-mail that I use for other things, I know it's not public and my name isn't even in it, but there's a lot of computer wizards out there.

I know the chance of someone encountering my blog is already very small, as there are millions, and the chances of it being someone that knows me are astronomical, but I feel a bit paranoid. There's hardly anyone I know in real life who is aware of the true depth of my problems. And there's some really embarrassing and shameful things.

So yeah, my question is basically is it worth doing it? I was feeling a bit excited about finally starting it, but now I've kind of spooked myself.

Thanks so much for any advice.