I'm miserable. Simple as that. My eyes open in the morning and I hate it. They remain open all day and I hate every second. When they finally get tired and I close them for the night, I hope it's the last time.

Every single day I think about ending it, I plan it, I obsess over it. I see others on here feeling the same. People just as desperate for relief as me. And yet, I feel alone. Completely alone. It doesn't help that I can't save anyone from this misery. All I can do is watch people as they're in pain. Sure, I'm there, but it's not enough.

I'm not enough. And I'm miserable. Why can't I just give up?