I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t see the point anymore of taking classes online when I’m never going to go back to school anyway. I can’t concentrate for more than 5 min. I wanted to show myself I could go back if I wanted to but I’m failing at that. I’m hoping I’m just not “in the swing of things” but progress has been slow and I’m already behind. It looks bleak. If I can’t do this I don’t want to spend the $100 for more classes. I wanted to possibly go back in 5-10 years to be a college academic advisor part time. When I get bored and my son’s all grown up. I’m not saying he’s stopping me but I have a purpose right now. I know in my heart I’ll never be well enough to work but hell I can at least dream. I don’t want the loans that come from going to a university. I don’t know. I hate feeling confused but that’s the headspace I’m in right now.