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Originally Posted by tecomsin
I thought for a long time I was not angry, but that was an illusion. I have to accept my own anger before being able to deal with it, rather than denying the anger altogether. My abusive behavior tends to leak out when I am angry... it's like I still have tapes to unlearn.
My experience is also that abusers will claim that they are the only one's being abused. Some people seem incapable of examining their own actions or they are blame casting.
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I only recently realised how much anger I have stored. I was denying it, same as you. I had a couple days where I wanted to hit something, hard and maybe even have it kick my arse because then I'd feel the same inside and out. That's my messed up logic and I need to deal with it, so I'm going back to the kickboxing workout class this week, Core de Force.