Anyone have any negative memories that you can remember like they happened yesterday? I have this case where some things that people have done or said, I can remember it as if it just happened yesterday. I can still remember exactly what they said, their exact facial and body expressions, and even the location and time of day. I remember these negative memories as lessons to prevent the same thing from happening, but at the same time I find it odd that I can remember stuff that happened many years ago like it happened yesterday.

For example, during my freshmen year of high school, at the end of the school year, a female friend at that time seemed to be growing more distant from me. I asked if anything was wrong and she said no but I had a feeling there really was something wrong. I let it go and ignored my gut intuition. I was way more naive back then. Then, on the last day of school, I saw her in the hall as I was coming the opposite direction to go to class that was a few feet away. That's when she blew up. She said I was very annoying, even though she always chose to sit with me at lunch. She said she was so sick of me and asked why I walked with her to class a couple times even though she had asked me to. I told her I only did it because she wanted me to and she said she didn't know what I was talking about and said she had to go to class. She quickly went into a classroom. That was the last time we really talked. There was no closure and no real explanation of what really went wrong.

She had asked me a couple times before that happened to walk with her to class after our lunch period, even though it was very inconvenient for me to and I even told her that but I did it anyway just to be a good friend since I thought she was upset about something and wanted to talk. I later found out that she really only befriended me out of pity. That is part of the reason I am the way I am today. I hate it when people befriend me out of pity for this reason. This false friend obviously didn't like me, but hung out with me anyway and even invited me to her house one time after school. I can still remember this happening like it happened yesterday. I was in total shock. I had asked her before then if something was wrong and she said no, when obviously there was something wrong. This is one of the biggest reasons I also have trust issues with others now. I try very hard to ensure this scenario never happens again. It may sound weird but I feel like it is the safest thing to do.

This happened on the last day of school in the Spring of 2007, almost eleven years ago, and I still can remember every bit of it. I know it is probably not healthy to keep memories like that for so long, but I can't help it. It was my first friendship I had in high school and it really hurt when she accused me of annoying me and not giving me a clear explanation of what I had done, and only to find out that she never really liked me to begin with. It was just a pity friendship for several months. And she had waited until the last day of school before summer vacation to tell me, so I felt like she was too afraid to tell me before that and wanted to wait until the last day so she wouldn't have to explain. Anyone have memories like this, whether they happened a week, a month, a year, or even a decade or more ago? Did the experience change you as a person? Are you afraid of it happening again? Just wondered. I am very afraid of it happening again and that's why I don't allow anyone to befriend me out of pity and if I find out someone is doing that, I cut them off immediately.