HI!!!!!
I was an outcast in school and I remember all the slights and insults and pranks as well. I don't think about them all the time, but I can recall them in quite perfect detail effortlessly when I see/hear/feel something that takes me back to those days. I too am very mistrustful, standoffish, and solitary. However, I am not the meek little mouse I was. In fact, I am almost ready for battle every time I see someone walking in my general direction. It hasn't done me a bit of harm and I wouldn't want it any other way. The people who are in my life are the only ones I need.