First of all, welcome aboard SD12. I hope that you will find this place to be helpful to you. I enjoy coming on here.

I probably have posted on here myself of what you've been saying. I consider myself as upper middle aged now. It seems like I'm just going along in a routine like clockwork. I feel very thankful for the good things I have, but there are times when I feel like I'm just existing.

I'm doing well with having a job and some pretty good money in the bank (not a whole lot, but enough). Socially, I am not doing well at all. I don't see that getting better anytime soon. I'm thankful right now for the great things that I have in my life, but I feel like the good things that I have left can be taken away from me. It would be like having the rug pulled out from under me.

So many people say to just get out of yourself and get busy. Do things. I do keep myself busy and can do things for others. It does not automatically make me feel better. For the time being it does, but that little bit of a good feeling that I get fades away quickly.