I saw 2 therapists in the past and I always felt the same about myself. I have to say that with the first T I got better for a while (months) and I had a bit more of self esteem but didn't last longer. With my second T nothing changed. I feel the same about myself. It was a weird experience but I feel the same (like i was suicidal even before, I'm suicidal now, nothing changed at all). They didnt help me that much tho.