Jinny, Thank you! I so need that right now!

Perna, Oh believe me I've tried to peer into her living room for the past 3 %#@&#! yrs I've been going to see her! ... I'm gonna have to tell her this tale in a near-enought-version when I go back on friday...miss the bit out about trying to peer into her home but say I was acting aloof trying to hide how much I need you..yeah I think I can say that...its doable...now ive got the rest of the week to get through so I guess I'd better get on with the rest of my live... and try and put this pain in the background on the back burner so to speak... perhaps this pain and jealousy has already happened and the situation is just triggering feeling memorys...yeah...thats it....

Perna, thanks for all the replys you do here to me and others!