I am not particularly clever, I am no stunning beauty, I try to be a good person, I care and have a lot of love inside me .....

I dont always get love the way I want it back, but that is MY problem......

I have a wonderful family of my own.....I miss having a mum who cared and protected me....I miss her every day....I feel guilt for never contacting her but it has to be this way .....

I need hugs right now and I'm crying so I dont want to ask my son
He had an exam today and I dont want to upset him.....

I have been so happy all weekend ...... and just now, out of absolutely nowhere my heart dropped, I felt so very very sad... my daughter went away for another week maybe that's why, but I dont know.....just out of the blue....I had to just spill what was going on in my head.....bit ecclectic.....

Sometimes I just dont feel good enough ya know? For anyone or anything, this is not a pity party or whatever you call it ... I'm just saying it how it is .......

My meds have been upped and I thought they were begining to work, now I wonder whether I should be on them at all in case they are numbing me and stopping my therapy or something ....

that's my rant for the day

Jinny xxxxx