I believe you. You'd have to be okay with seeing him worsening in another's care, be it a nursing home or hospice or whatever. No one will be able to caretake him as you do, because you love him. It's like being stuck between a rock and a hard place. Take time during the day when you can to not only rest, but possibly find a hobby or interest you have that could give you some joy. I hope the pdoc appt. helps. I don't know about stimulants. My pdoc prescribed adderall but it didn't make me accomplish more. Just a spacey feeling.