Having another really really bad day. right now I feel like crying. i don't know why. I feel deeply sad. so sad. i need help i know that. i am doing things to create debt and i don't know why. i am trying to figure out a way to focus. i do not have the structure i have had had in the past and without the structure i can't focus. everyone is every where. i need help. a lot of help. i need to see a dr. i will try tomorrow to get a dr. i need to start my life but i dont know where it should start. i can't breath. it's anxiety. i know that. i just want all the sounds to stop so i can think. no good