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Old Jan 15, 2018, 09:26 PM
MonikerPending MonikerPending is offline
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Location: Old Orchard Beach, Maine
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Hello.

Though I haven't been diagnosed yet (due to the fact that mental health services around here are difficult to access and generally low quality anyway), I am pretty sure that I have DID, given (among other things) the fact that at least one of my alters is also friends with myself and a few mutual friends (one of whom also has DID) on Facebook.

We're not sure who among us, if anyone, is the host. I (Core) am the most active and in control - for better or worse, and probably for worse, given my condition - as of late. There was an alter which went by the name this body's biological progenitors (whom I cannot call parents, on principle) chose for this body, but we all agree that he only did it to spite us, rather than because he actually felt comfortable with that name. He's not around any more, though, so... no reason to worry about him, I guess.

One thing we all have in common is that none of us actually want to live in this body. None of us are comfortable with this configuration of "human male." All of the alters (myself included) so far have specie dysphoria, and at least one (Samantha) has VERY severe gender dysphoria - this body is, in fact, in the process of transitioning from male to female, to help her (maybe she's the host?), but even then, she doesn't feel like the changes that the transitioning that today's technology could achieve would be enough to resolve her gender dysphoria, and even if it could, she's still not comfortable remaining human, either. All of us, except for myself (I'd prefer a mechanical form to a biological one), feel that we would be more comfortable as one of the species from a fantasy story that some of us had been working on (some of us are actually characters in that story). One other thing that we would also like is to each have our own bodies and lives, but as with changing specie, I acknowledge that the technology for doing so does not, and might never, exist.

Given that we will most likely have to live with each other in this body for the rest of our lives, and that the technology for making the changes any one of us would want probably won't exist anyway... How do we deal with this?

Last edited by MonikerPending; Jan 15, 2018 at 09:41 PM.
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