Nice to hear from you treevoice. I don't know the answer to your question. What I can tell you is that I have turned to the ancient Tibetan Buddhist teachings called "Lojong" (mind training) primarily as taught by the Buddhist nun Pema Chödrön. Basically what it all boils down to is learning to be comfortable with uncertainty. I've made two major attempts to end my life. Without Ani Pema's teachings, I doubt I would be writing this today. I wish you well...