I completely understand. I seem to get mixed episodes a lot lately. Most people identify it when I’m talking really fast, my thoughts are all over the place, I get fidgety, angry, irritable, then crying uncontrollably. I can experience all these emotions within about 1 to 2 minutes. Not only is it frustrating, it’s so exhausting. I can get overly excited and productive in the morning, depressed and unable to get anything done in the afternoon, and irritable and angry in the evening. I am so sorry you are going through one now. I think mixed episodes are pure hell.