@guilloche: Thank you for a very thoughtful reply. Yes; she says that she thinks she understands the distress that the nightmares and intrusive thoughts are giving me. I, on the other hand, feel that she doesn't really understand or isn't really empathizing with it.

About the pro-rate. She said that we still have until the end of the month in our usual room. She wants to see how that goes first before deciding on what to do. She said that she is not giving me an absolute resounding no. I said that I need to know what my options are. I don't see why it's so difficult for her to just give me a yes or no about whether pro-rating is an option. Why wait until the end of the month? I need to know what my options are now in order to feel safer.

She did say that she could find a way to keep the toys away from sight. Where and how - I don't know. I don't like that the room is bigger either. And it is noisier in there. But I'm not sure if there is much anything she can do about it. She is also sharing the office space with other therapists. We have always done Tuesdays 6pm since we started working together over two years ago. And we cannot even keep our 6pm time because she would not have access to the room.

If things do not work out with this therapist, I would be done with therapy and not seek out another person. These relationships don't seem to work out, which makes anything positive that we have worked on seem like a lie or an illusion.