My mother in law has been my biggest supporter for the last 3 yrs since i was hospitalized she wants me to better more than i want to. I have hurt in so bad in these past 3 yrs, by screaming at her when she is just trying to help because i feel judged by her. she uses her experience in AA recovery and therapy to get over her issues that made her drink. I however feel like she had a choice to get better, while i am stuck with mental health issues for life.
I have bashed her to friends and family because i feel like she is attacking me and i need to vent. I have damaged some of her relationships (ie. with my parents) due to it.

I dont know how to go about fixing it. any advice?