Hi. Damn, I also couldn't help not cry as I read what you wrote. I was stunned because it sounded just like it came from my life and from my mind. Reading your words was like watching someone be whipped. I could only think of how much you deserve love and compassion and any help that you need, and time. Made me able to look at myself the same way. Take care, brother; please give yourself the mercy and understanding I'm sure you'd offer any of us.