I feel like any teachers my position Would be too much for me. Just the thought of planning lessons and executing them makes me anxious. My job at the private school for behaviorally disordered kids was the most lenient on the lessons front but the trade off was being cursed at and threatened etc all day long. I just want out of education altogether. That means I will have to live with my mom for the foreseeable future but it is what it is. Thankfully I only have one child and my grandparents have set up a college trust fund for him so I don’t have to worry about getting him through college.

I emailed HR today about how I would go about applying for intermittent fmla. Hoping to hear back soon. My concern is I’m starting with a new pdoc on January 31 as my old one is no longer at the practice. I dont know if she would approve of writing a note right off the bat. But I’ve been with my therapist for a couple of years now so she would. I just don’t know if they’d accept that. It might need to be a doctor.

I feel like a lot of the problems I have at work are in my head and if I wasn’t so critical of myself it wouldn’t be as bad. But at the same time I know that this is just too much for me. I just hope I can make it the 4.5 months until the end of the year (see, I miscalculated in the original post - I’m terrible!).