Life has been so crazy lately that I keep second guessing myself about how Im feeling. Am I falling into depression or am I manifesting signs of mania? Or am I having both. Ughhhhhh!! Thank goodness I go to my pdoc today and see how things are going. Although my life is crazy right now its still good and way better in my book then it has been. Since Im on my own now I just fear going off into an episode and no ones there to catch it before it starts running out of control. Sigh..... Well I just have to try my best.