He never replied to my text. I took a decision, this friday after therapy I'm going to call him. I don't know if I'll take one drink or two before to gain some courage. I wrote some things I want to say to him on a piece of paper. I don't want to vent, I'll ask him to say I'm sorry, I only want this from him nothing more. I want to say to him that I made mistakes too, that I'm not able to hate him. I just want to end this relationship in a calm way.
I already feel anxious when I think about making the call but I feel like I need to do this and confront him. If he keeps saying that I'm crazy and nothing happened, I'll try to take his side, maybe saying "yeah even if I'm crazy and this is all unreal, say sorry". Because I don't want to yell or be disrespectful. I feel like by doing this then I could easily go over this. while if I don't call him and we don't clarify things, I'll always feel like our relationship is still open.