Thank you for expressing your emotions ExplodingSun56. You helped me feel my elemental feelings. I tend to get stuck in my head when I am avoiding life. I usually eat until my mind pays attention that I have deep feelings that are not being honored. I like to know that it is okay to love and want people and especially to hug them as well as howl at the moon. My ex was muttering that my son is bleeding him dry. It's hard not to get stuck in the hate and to not take a breath and see my ex's darkness is just speck in the whole universe of my son's recovery, and of my freedom.