I've found after talking with my therapist that when I'm in a depressive episode, I hide from everyone and don't talk to anyone. My boyfriend and best friend text me but I can't find it in me to bother replying. I just go MIA for as long as my episode lasts. I push everyone away even when they're trying to help and understand. My boyfriend does an amazing job of staying patient with me when this happens, but it makes me feel like a horrible person for staying silent. It's like I don't want to be around people when I'm in an episode, because I feel guilty for feeling bad. I don't want to bring them down too. Does anyone else ever feel this way?