My crush, my future, trying to plan things out too much. Striking to unreachable peaks, because I am in denial of whatever has happened most of my life ever since I started mental health treatment, as if it was all a lie.

I have a twist of need for help and ego - don’t like being inferior

Being on mental health treatment since teen age has reduced my ability to make independent decisions, which is why I am not fully content with decisions I made in relationships. They’re a chronic problem for me. Unless I have a crush, where I am very capable of talking through the heart and it greatly drives me to live and build a relationship with said person.

Thanks for listening. If someone wants to talk I’d love to