I do this too. I do let one person in who I describe as fighting in the trenches with me. Other then that, I go MIA. Sometimes I can’t even post here. I feel bad when I do this yet I don’t know what the answer is. My depression is really bad when it hits and I’m doing the best that I can in am emergency situation at that point. Maybe that’s it? Treating ourselves with compassion and loving kindness, knowing we are doing the best job we can?

I hope you feel better soon.