Thanks for all of your replies. The lack of mental health services in my area is disgusting. I don’t have a doc that I can easily get ahold of. My therapist cant get me in until tomorrow. I left a voicemail on the crisis line and someone did call me back. I’m not sure how much it helped. I ended up taking a double dose of Ativan and trying to sleep. I took of work today and got a nasty text message from my boss about it. I slept all day today from the extra meds. I’m feeling a little better tonight than I did last night but I don’t believe the episode is over.