So I’m part of this treatment program where I go every day to groups taught by 7 different therapists. I see one of those Ts for therapy and our therapy in that sense is traditional, but overall our relationship is a little more casual/friendly than with a T that I would just see in session.

Now, even though I don’t and have never had a substance abuse problem, I have to be drug tested weekly for reasons that are complicated. Well occasionally these drugs tests come back as false positives for opiates for no reason, and that happened with the one I took last Friday. So, the nurse normally carries out these tests, but since they wanted to re-test me today and the nurse wasn’t available, my T ended up doing it. That meant she had to come into the bathroom with me and I had to give her my sample and everything.

This made me wildly uncomfortable but I was too intimidated to say anything and knew it would look like a dumb excuse to get out of the test and might make me look guilty even though I’m not. But I’ve been ruminating on it nonstop and I cringe every time I think about the fact that this happened. I don’t even want to see her for our session tomorrow. I already hate doing the urine tests because I find them demeaning and humiliating, and it was just so, so much worse having her do it. I don’t think I’ll be able to look her in the face. I want to just hide.

Am I overreacting? Would this make anyone else feel uncomfortable?