Long story short -- in college, I was diagnosed with DID. The psych who gave me that diagnosis eventually tried to prevent me from getting a job (security clearance) because of it. At that time, I renounced the diagnosis and ran far far away from ever talking parts.

S (exT) always eyerolled the diagnosis with me. But then, 2 years in, I brought parts up again, tentatively, because I was struggling to describe my internal experience any other way... and got a big fat eyeroll/sharp rebuke for ever thinking I could possibly have any sort of parts.

So now it's coming back up again. And it just feels... I don't even know. Shameful. (For me...I absolutely believe other people can have parts and even DID - but 'what happened to me wasn't bad enough - wasn't valid enough' for it to be real for me -- I'm just making it up for attention or at least people will think so idk) idk