Of course manic/psychotic me and manic depressed me is totally different. If I'm at my baseline, which is just a normal depressed I guess, it's constant.

I wake up at 2:00pm pretty much every day. I feel horrible. I don't want to get out of bed. I don't want to do anything but lay there. I stay there for about an hour. Then I'll feel a little better around 3pm and switch rooms to where at least I'm sitting up. If I'm up for it in the afternoon I will shower or just wash my face. I just feel pretty empty but not horrible. Then everyone comes home around 7:00pm and it stresses me out. There's always a lot of arguing and yelling and nonsense going on. I try to stay in my room and avoid it, but I can still hear it. If it's too bad I don't even leave me room to eat so it's a bummer.

Then everyone is in bed by 10:00pm and I have the house to myself again. I'll grab a snack and some tea and sit in the living room where no one will bother me. I feel pretty okay at that time. I'll lounge around for a bit.

Then around 1:00am I start to feel down again. I for some reason start thinking of every depressing thing possible and how I've failed. It's mainly the same thing every night but it differs occasionally. I tend to make bad decisions at that time.

I'll leave my comfort zone and go cry for awhile. I then lay in my bed awake until like 5am depressed until I fall asleep.

So I guess night is worst for me, who knows.