Dear Dr. S,

Why do I have to leave at the end of sessions? It's not fair you know, not fair at all that I have to go back to my life at the end of the sessions. I want to hide in your office and not leave. I almost don't care if you go, I want to just be there sometimes. Next time, I want to see my puzzle under the couch. I wanted to break apart the glow in the dark puzzle today and throw it all over the office because I couldn't touch the good feelings of it. It felt so ugly (best word I can use to describe it, bad) that I couldn't feel anything about it, no excitement, no connection to it... eh.. it's there. All I could tell you was that I was not in good head space for it. Violent thoughts, angry thoughts - beat you, hurt you thoughts. eh was all I could tell you. None of it matters - that's where the thoughts are.

I love you, don't give up on me, ok.

-me